Simply A Farmer’s Wife


Whew It’s Over…..
September 21, 2007, 9:53 pm
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Well, two hours later the interview is over.  It went great!  The reporter, Rhonda, was so easy to talk to.  She shared our laughs, our tears and I believe even part of our loss.  I think it’s impossible to meet us and not feel our loss and a bond with Parker.   Her story has touched so many lives in the 16 months that she has been gone from this Earth.  I am constantly amazed at how inspirational her story is. 

We are so excited to read the article.  I know that she will do a great job and will do Parker justice.  What a wonderful person she is and I am so glad that Parker brought her into our lives. 

This journey has always been a rocky one but has always been a rewarding one as well.  Life dealt Ashley and I a hand we were not prepared for but through our faith, family and friends we are survivors.  We will continue to survive and will continue to support other families in our position. 

I will post the article as soon as I can.   It comes out in Tuesday’s edition.  We are both so excited!!!

Until next time…. 



Remembering Her
September 21, 2007, 4:32 pm
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In one hour and 4 minutes we will start our interview.  My stomach is in knots.  Reliving her life and death are so hard for us.  It reminds me of what isn’t fair and how CDH really sucks.  It brings me to my weakest.   Please just pray for us that all goes smoothly.  Telling her story is an honor but it is very difficult too.  We are proud of our little girl and want the world to know her. 

I found this song today and thought I would share the lyrics.  It is by Josh Groban who I just love.  Well, I must go get ready as they are taking pictures of us. 

Remember Me
by Josh Groban

Remember
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star that keeps burning so brightly
It is the last light to fade into the rising sun
I’m with you whenever you tell my story
For I am all I’ve done

Remember
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory,
remember me

I am that warm voice in the cold wind that whispers
And if you listen you’ll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can reach out and touch you
Then I will never die

Remember
I’ll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me
(Remember me)

Remember
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me…
Remember me…
Remember me…



The Paper is Coming… Tomorrow…
September 20, 2007, 12:32 pm
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I woke up this morning  and checked my email like I always do.   And there was an email from the local newspaper.  They want to do a story on the blood drive and on Parker and us.  And they want to come tomorrow so that it can run Tuesday.  Our town is so small that the paper only runs on Tuesday and Friday.   Pretty hysterical huh? 

 Needless to say I am running around like a chicken with her head cut off because I have to clean this house top to bottom.  I am trying to finish painting which is a pain in the butt.  Wish me luck y’all!

 Also, some great news is that my brother-in-law was spreading the word on base (he’s army) and Kimberly, my representative from the American Red Cross, received a phone call from Major Allen.  He wanted to know about the drive and also wants to hold a drive in memory of Parker on Ft. Bragg in October.  There are clearance issues so he is working those out.  We felt so honored that he would go above and beyond to do something in our daughter’s honor.  I’ll keep you updated on the progress of the other blood drive.  Pray that all goes smoothly!

Well, I better get back to cleaning and I have to drop off posters to some local businesses around town. 

Unit next time my friends…



Honesty Isn’t Always The Best Policy
September 19, 2007, 5:56 pm
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Yep, that’s a person wearing their seat belt like a good person.  And hence the reason for this post.   Sunday Ashley and I were driving home from my sister’s house and about 20 minutes from our house when he was persisted about smelling hot sauce in the car.  Normally I would just think he was crazy but that day I had purchased some hat sauce and thought “oh great the jar broke.”  So, I took my seat belt off ( I ALWAYS wear my seat belt)  to check behind the seat and make sure all was okay.  Ashley quickly and loudly tells me to lean back.  I look up dumbfounded and there goes a state trooper.  He turns around and pulls us over.  Oh yeah I forgot to mention that Ashley was speeding too.  We assumed it was for speeding but the guy walks up and says that he stopped us for two reasons.  Speeding and get this…. Ashley wasn’t wearing his seat belt or so it seemed to the trooper.  I started laughing because Ashley did have his on but I didn’t.  So, I tell the guy that he’s wrong in a polite way and explain why mine was off.  He says and I quote verbatim, “Why thank you ma’am for being so honest with me because I didn’t notice you had your seat belt off.  I do appreciate your honesty in the situation. ”  He then proceeds to ask us both for our driver’s license and we give them to him.  He comes back 20 minutes later and gives us BOTH a NO SEAT BELT ticket.  Are you kidding me???  I laugh and he asks what’s so funny and I told him I couldn’t believe he was giving me a ticket when he didn’t even see that i didn’t have mine on.  So, I have decided that honesty isn’t always the best policy.  The tickets are $100 a piece.  Yep, $200 dollars down the drain.   My advice to all you all out there always wear your seat belt and if you don’t have it on for 1 minute DO NOT tell the cop that!

So, today I received all the poster, fliers, etc for the blood drive.  And I have to say that they are even more gorgeous in person.  I cried when I saw them today and couldn’t help but wonder if Parker was smiling too.   I am really excited about the drive but it brings back so many raw emotions.  So many people have asked about Parker and what happened to her and reliving the story is numbing. 

We were talking about placement of the Christmas tree this year and I had the greatest vision of Parker pulling ornaments off the tree and feeding them to Pep and Ryleigh.  And watching her open gifts with her cousins, Karsen and Caden.  It brought tears to both Ashley and I.  The holidays are really hard.  Halloween, Thanksgiving, Ashley’s birthday, Christmas, our anniversary and then my birthday all right in a row.  I wonder what she would have been this Halloween.  I wonder so many things.  Things I will never know until I see her again in Heaven.   I ask that each of you pray for us and for the other CDH families.  The holiday seasons are hard for those of us who have lost and for those who didn’t physically lose, well they lost something too. 

I went through all of Jenn Miller’s pictures last night and cried my eyes out.  What a story pictures can tell.  The hardest one for me to see was Penny holding Audrey.  Penny is Jenn’s MIL and passed away months ago from cancer.  It is a great picture of the two of them.  How sad that Audrey won’t know her Grandma Penny.  I stop and I think I have it so hard and then I see something like that and I realize that I don’t.  Life is hard.  And it sucks sometimes.  A lot of times.  But how blessed we all are to be alive. 

God has given Ashley and I so much to be thankful for.  And it’s taken us some time to be thankful but we’ve come around.  And I know that Parker is so proud of us both. 

This post was somewhat random but that’s my life.  Well, it’s time to go meet my girlfriend so we can walk.  We walk three nights a week now and I feel so great about it. 

Until next time my friends……



You Want Me To Go Where?
September 16, 2007, 11:26 pm
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Okay, so Saturday we drove to Jacksonville for my niece’s soccer games.  A two and a half hour drive.  We left at 7:30 a.m. which is a time completely unheard of in our house.  The great thing about Ashley being self-employed is he makes his own hours.  We are not, and I repeat, we are not morning people!

So anyway we drove to Jacksonville and made great time considering neither of us have ever been before and we used Yahoo Maps to get us there.  Whew….  I had to pee so bad when I first got there and searched all over for the restrooms.  Finally, Ashley said “Babe, they’re over there.”  And I said, “Where? I don’t see them.”  And his response was right there, the porta pottys!”  I gasped and I’m guessing pretty loudly because people were staring at me and thought to myself you’ve got to be kidding me.  I have NEVER used one before and was sick to my stomach at the thought of going into to one.  I had NO choice people!  I had to go so bad and so I did it.  I used a porta potty and almost threw up.  I think next time I’d rather piss myself. 

The person who invented them should be shot.  They are disgusting! 

So, there’s my vent for that.  Next subject.

We rented four movies this weekend.  We’ve watched three and they were all great.  Definitely movies I would suggest.  The first one was Alpha Dog.  It has Justin Timberlake, Bruce Willis, Sharon Stone and some other people too.  It is based on a true story and it’s great.  Not a kid movie at all.  A little vuglar with language, drinking and ect.  but truly a great movie.  Second one was Premonition with Julian McMahon (Nip/Tuck) and Sandra Bullock.  Awesome movie!!!  The ending is definitely not what any of us expected or guessed.  Third one was The Holiday with Jude Law, Cameron Diaz, Kate Winslet and Jack Black.  This movie was definitely my favorite.  It’s a great story about love and life.  We have one more that we plan on watching tomorrow night.  It’s called The Perfect Stranger  with Bruce Willis and Halle Berry. 

The weather is absolutely gorgeous.  The high today was 76!  It’s 64 right now and we have every window open in the house mainly due to the $226 electric bill.  It feels great outside and all week we won’t reach over 80.  It is definitely about time for some cooler weather. 

Well, that’s my weekend in a nutshell.  I am hanging curtains, painting and rearranging tomorrow.  Wish me luck! 

Jessica



Parker’s Blood Drive
September 11, 2007, 10:33 pm
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Well, everything is official now!  We are having the drive on Saturday, September 29th from 9:00 a.m to 1:30 p.m. and we are both so very excited!  We are recuriting like crazy and hope that we have a huge turnout!  It is an honor to share her story and by doing this drive we are saving hundreds of lives.  You are truly giving the gift of life!

For those of you reading who are close to home please call me and schedule an appointment to donate.   All others please say a prayer that all goes smoothly!

Take a look at the posters for the drive at Blood Drive Poster for Parker.

Jessica



Remembering 9/11
September 11, 2007, 9:46 am
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Today, six years later, we still remember what it felt like that morning as if it just happened.   I ask that you please take a moment of silence for those men and women who lost their lives 6 years ago and for their families who still mourn and grieve them.  And pray for our troops that unselfishly fight for and protect our country.

We will never forget!