Simply A Farmer’s Wife

So Much To Be Thankful For.
November 24, 2008, 11:46 pm
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It’s hard to believe that Thanksgiving is less than 3 days away.  This year we have so much to be thankful for and we know that all our blessings come from God. 

The last few years have been hard on us.  Really hard.  Losing Parker took so much out of us and changed who we forever are as individuals and as husband and wife.  The holidays haven’t always been so kind because they’ve been constant reminders of what we lost.  How ever were we supposed to be thankful at Thanksgiving when our daughter was dead?  How were we supposed to be excited about Christmas when we had nothing to celebrate because our daughter was dead?  Holidays will never have the same meaning to us as they did before.  The anticipation of her getting up early Christmas morning to see what Santa left is gone.  It was gone before it ever started.  We’ve come a long way since May 8, 2006 at 5:00 a.m.  The moment she left our lives in her Daddy’s arms.  I didn’t know how we would make it.  I didn’t believe we would.  I thought we’d be that tragic story where our marriage couldn’t survive and we’d be another statistic.  We aren’t though.  We survived her death.  Together.  It wasn’t always easy and there were days we both questioned if we’d make it.  If we even wanted to be together anymore.  We stayed together somedays because of Parker.  For no other reason but her.  And today we are more in love than we were 4 years ago.  Our marriage still isn’t perfect but we love each other and we made a vow before God that we’d be in this for better or worse and that’s exactly what we are going to do.  Some days are lighter than others but together we’ll make it through the darkest and lightest days of our lives. 

There is so much to be thankful for.  So much to praise God for.  I know that I am where I am today because of our Lord.  For those of you who don’t believe in the power of prayer look at Ashley and me.  We are proof that prayer works.  God does answer prayers. 

Our holidays will never be the same but each year our smile comes back a little bigger because with each year we find more peace in Parker’s death.  God is rebuilding our lives day by day and sometimes minute by minute.  And this time we are letting Him.  He has done some amazing work in our lives and letting Him take control is the best thing we ever did.  Not the easiest but definitely the best. 

Wednesday night we are going to be driving up to Hillsborough.  We will meet the family who are moving in tomorrow and meeting Carter.   He is in Duke.  A place we haven’t set foot in since Parker died almost 3 years ago.  Typing it gives me goosebumps and makes me nauseous.  Please pray that God will give us strength, wisdom and courage.  We are taking up a home cooked Thanksgiving meal to both families and cannot wait to see them all.  The new family, Mark and Kristin, delivered a boy in Jacksonville yesterday undiagnosed.  Please keep them and the Myers in your prayers.   Also, say a special prayer for April and Russell Van Dyke.  This holiday will be the first without Seth.  It’s hard and they’ll need us and our prayers.  They are a special family. 

We hope that each of you have a wonderful holiday with family and friends.  I’ll update again before the big day but just in case I don’t get a chance as I have some cleaning and cooking to do take the time to list your things to be thankful for this year and when you do thank God for each of them.