Simply A Farmer’s Wife

Going Away For The Weekend.
January 8, 2009, 11:19 pm
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We are going to Parker’s House tomorrow night to do some work.  We have a new family moving in on the 18th and are going up to do some painting, moving in new furniture and some other stuff.   Our friends are going with us so we can get double the work done.  We’ll be back Sunday night and I hope to accomplish most of the things on the “to do” list.  Our church is going down on the 30th to do some much need landscaping and then our next project will be to tackle the basement.  That is going to be a lot of work but it’ll be fun to design and decorate. 

Please say a prayer for our community and for the Love/White family.  There was a suicide on Tuesday and it has rocked our small community and the family she left behind.  She will be buried on Saturday and her family will need our prayers.

So Much To Be Thankful For.
November 24, 2008, 11:46 pm
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It’s hard to believe that Thanksgiving is less than 3 days away.  This year we have so much to be thankful for and we know that all our blessings come from God. 

The last few years have been hard on us.  Really hard.  Losing Parker took so much out of us and changed who we forever are as individuals and as husband and wife.  The holidays haven’t always been so kind because they’ve been constant reminders of what we lost.  How ever were we supposed to be thankful at Thanksgiving when our daughter was dead?  How were we supposed to be excited about Christmas when we had nothing to celebrate because our daughter was dead?  Holidays will never have the same meaning to us as they did before.  The anticipation of her getting up early Christmas morning to see what Santa left is gone.  It was gone before it ever started.  We’ve come a long way since May 8, 2006 at 5:00 a.m.  The moment she left our lives in her Daddy’s arms.  I didn’t know how we would make it.  I didn’t believe we would.  I thought we’d be that tragic story where our marriage couldn’t survive and we’d be another statistic.  We aren’t though.  We survived her death.  Together.  It wasn’t always easy and there were days we both questioned if we’d make it.  If we even wanted to be together anymore.  We stayed together somedays because of Parker.  For no other reason but her.  And today we are more in love than we were 4 years ago.  Our marriage still isn’t perfect but we love each other and we made a vow before God that we’d be in this for better or worse and that’s exactly what we are going to do.  Some days are lighter than others but together we’ll make it through the darkest and lightest days of our lives. 

There is so much to be thankful for.  So much to praise God for.  I know that I am where I am today because of our Lord.  For those of you who don’t believe in the power of prayer look at Ashley and me.  We are proof that prayer works.  God does answer prayers. 

Our holidays will never be the same but each year our smile comes back a little bigger because with each year we find more peace in Parker’s death.  God is rebuilding our lives day by day and sometimes minute by minute.  And this time we are letting Him.  He has done some amazing work in our lives and letting Him take control is the best thing we ever did.  Not the easiest but definitely the best. 

Wednesday night we are going to be driving up to Hillsborough.  We will meet the family who are moving in tomorrow and meeting Carter.   He is in Duke.  A place we haven’t set foot in since Parker died almost 3 years ago.  Typing it gives me goosebumps and makes me nauseous.  Please pray that God will give us strength, wisdom and courage.  We are taking up a home cooked Thanksgiving meal to both families and cannot wait to see them all.  The new family, Mark and Kristin, delivered a boy in Jacksonville yesterday undiagnosed.  Please keep them and the Myers in your prayers.   Also, say a special prayer for April and Russell Van Dyke.  This holiday will be the first without Seth.  It’s hard and they’ll need us and our prayers.  They are a special family. 

We hope that each of you have a wonderful holiday with family and friends.  I’ll update again before the big day but just in case I don’t get a chance as I have some cleaning and cooking to do take the time to list your things to be thankful for this year and when you do thank God for each of them.

November 21, 2008, 3:13 pm
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I believe that the more good someone tries to do the more the Devil tries to work on them.  I have never been a mild tempered person.  I have always been extremely passionate about what I believe in even as a small child.  Over the years I have worked very hard on maintaining my temper.  It hasn’t always worked in my favor either.  Since Parker I think I’ve become even more passionate especially about CDH awareness. 

I received a nasty comment the other day regarding my previous post.  It’s a shame that people will post nasty comments and then not leave their name.  My immediate reaction was to get mad but then I took 5 minutes to just pray for them.  I know who the person is and it’s so sad that she continues to harass me and my blog but I believe that God brought her into my life for a reason.  If nothing else to teach me P.A.T.I.E.N.C.E. which is something I lack on most occasions. 

I know that I will be tested now more than ever as my relationship with the Lord grows.  I know that the Devil will try his hardest to tempt me in many different ways but if I can handle each of those situations with as much grace as I did today I think I’ll be fine.  I have God on my side so what can go wrong? 

 James 1:12 Blessed [is] the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.

I will not let others get in my path of cleaning up my life.  I recently did a women’s Bible study called Frazzled Females and there is a lesson on peace.  I am re-reading that lesson.  It has great insight into ownership and finding peace by forgiveness. 

Please continue to pray for me and my journey.  The foundation is doing amazing work and it too will not suffer because of the people trying to stand in my way.  I believe that it is our ministry and an outlet to reach others through Jesus Christ.  It is a huge blessing to both Ashley and myself. 

To those of you who’ve offered your support thank you so much!

Changing Lanes.
November 18, 2008, 4:30 pm
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First, our trip was awesome.  The hotel not so much.  My nephew kept calling it the helltel in the car on the drive there and we couldn’t get him to say hotel (he’s 5) but little did we know he knew what he was taking about.  The boy had a vision and we didn’t listen.  The hotel was not up to our standards.  We are those people who don’t mind paying $400 a night to know we won’t wake up with a rash because the sheets haven’t  been washed in who knows how long .  Anyway, we stayed on Jekyll Island, GA.  Gorgeous place.  We plan on going again sometime soon and staying in the nice hotel.  The girls did great the first game.  It was very competitive and this was their first out of state tournament so an eye opener for them.  And great experience.  They lost game two and game three which sent us packing on day two.  They shed some tears which was so sad to witness but they know what they are up against when we do the tournament again next year.  The seafood was awesome!  There’s nothing like fresh seafood.  We had salmon on two occasions and crab cakes on another.  Overall a great trip.  I enjoyed being with my family.  I did miss Ashley and the girls though.  I was excited to get home and I came home to a sparkling clean house! 

Last night we had a young women’s mission meeting.  It was fun and something that I’ve been interested in for a long time.  For those who don’t know my whole story hear goes.  I was raised in a Baptist church.  I’m talking every Sunday morning, evening and Wednesday evening.  Summers were spent at church camp which I loved!  We were a Christian family who served the Lord.  We prayed before each meal always, read our Bibles faithfully and I accepted the Lord as my Savior when I was 10 at Pine Springs Baptist Camp.  I remember the day like it was yesterday.  I remember the walk down the aisle.  The long walk.   I was 10 so everything seemed bigger.  It was a defining moment in my life.  I rededicated my life to the Lord when I was 16 at a Dawson McAllister conference in Dallas.  I knew that I had strayed from the Lord’s purpose and I needed to get on track.  I didn’t stay on track for long.  My walk with the Lord was like one of those old bridges you see in pirate movies where most of the boards are missing and the only thing keeping you afloat is the old string and a prayer.  I wasn’t the perfect Christian.  It took me a long time to realize there is no such thing.  I’ve struggled with my relationship with the Lord for many years.  When I moved to North Carolina 5 years ago I never realized what He would have in store for me.   First my husband.  Ashley.  And then our daughter. Parker.  We settled in his small hometown of Bladenboro after Parker passed away (I’ll get there for those that don’t know) and found the greatest church with the greatest people.  Our lives are changing lanes now.  We are serving the Lord like we should be.  And we are loving every minute of it. 

We started attending a new Sunday school class.  We are called the Emmaus Class.  For those who don’t know the story of Emmaus read Luke 24-13-35.  We love the class and although our participation has been more limited than we’d like it to be we love when we are given the opportunity to attend.  My niece just finised her soccer season and every game was on Sunday.   The class is a mixture of people and ages.  We are the younger young adult class. 

We are getting ready to start WMU again in our church as well.  It has been obsolete for many years because it became more about gossiping than serving the Lord.  I am glad that our Pastor has decided to allow the ladies to do WMU again.  I believe that although the men are the spiritual leaders of our household I think that it’s important for women to also be leaders.  I want to set a better example for those around me.  I want to be a better Christian.  A more obedient Christian. 

I’ve struggled a lot the last two years.  Parker’s death was a test of my faithfulness.  I believe that God expected me to be angry with Him.  Michelle Towner, a dear friend of mine. reminded me during my rage that God understood because He too lost a child.  It  put things into a better prospective for me although it didn’t stop my anger or blame.  I was so pissed at God for taking my little girl.  For making her sick.  For hurting my family.  For destroying my family.  I don’t know why but one day I realized that the journey of grief was not one that I could do on my own.  I got on my knees and I surrendered my heart and soul to the Lord.   I felt this weight lifted off my shoulders and it was amazing.  I realized that letting go didn’t mean letting hergo.  I’ve come so far since May 8, 2006.  I believe that my daughter is an angel sitting beside the Lord I serve.  She is whole, healthy and happy.  She is waiting on me and her daddy and she will never know that we were ever a part as time doesn’t exist in Heaven.  I get goose bumps still when I think of that.  It brings tears to my eyes now as I type it out.  He spared her so much and gave her life so much meaning.  He chose us to be her parents because He saw something in us  that we never saw in ourselves.  What an amazing gift He gave us.  I look at Parker’s life and death differently.  It’s taken almost 3 years to get there.  It wasn’t easy and I still backslide every now and then.  Holiday are hard.  Really hard.   But just when I start to feel down I’ll feel the wind and I’ll know it’s her and that all is alright.  Life isn’t supposed to be easy.  But I do believe it’s what you make of it.  I could have turned out to be some pain pill popping addicted person and by the grace of God I’m not.  We see his love and mercy in her life and death.  Our family isn’t whole in the sense we thought it would be but we are parents to an angel and that is amazing. 

I know that I’ve jumped around in this post but I hope that somewhere along the line I made some kind of sense. 

Serving the Lord has never been as important as it is to me now in the time of my life.  My true conviction happened only a few weeks ago and it gets stronger daily.  You’ll see some changes in my blog and in me.   No more Negative Nancy because I do believe that all things are possible through Christ who strengthens me! 

I ask that you pray for us.  That you pray for me.  And please continue to pray our country.  I know that I might lose some of my readers and I might offend some of you but remember that this blog is about me and my life.  And a huge part of my life now is the Lord.  Please stay open minded to the things I say and always feel free to ask questions. 

I better wrap up.  I have a long night ahead of me!  I’ll post some pictures soon of our weekend.  I’m so proud of my niece.  What a superstar she is!

Prayers Needed.
October 10, 2008, 10:34 am
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Please continue to pray for Carter as he was put on ECMO last night.  He and his family need our thoughts and prayers.  Take a peek at their blog and send them some good thoughts! 

They are an amazing family!

Awesome News.

I’ve been meaning to share this with y’all for quite some time now but just haven’t had the opportunity to really sit down and spend some quality time on it.  So today I decided that I would just do it before I forgot again or didn’t have the time.  Story of my life.

Anyway, Brad and Kellie Myers are staying at Parker’s House right now.  Actually they are at Duke right now in labor and hopefully Carter makes his grand entrance soon.  On their multiple trips to Duke they shared with the doctors up there about The Parker Reese Foundation and Parker’s House and the doctors started asking questions.  They wanted more information and were impressed with our mission to help CDH families.  So, long story short they asked for our info and we made some contacts and are in the process of scheduling a meeting with the CDH team at Duke for possible sponsorship.  I have spoken with 5 doctors, one was actually Parker’s doctor, and a social worker.  They are all very interested in working with our foundation on many different levels and supporting Parker’s House.  This news is overwhelming and I cannot even begin to explain what it will mean for families of CDH.  We are so excited to be working so  closely with one of the top facilities in North Carolina that we have to continue to pinch ourselves. 

We still cannot believe that after 10 months our foundation has grown to be what it is today.  We are so proud of all the people behind the scene that give countless hours of their own time and money.  We are so blessed to have the sponsors we do.  And we are especially blessed  that people are praying for our mission.  We believe first hand that prayer is powerful and it’s why we always ask you to say one for us and for all families past, present and future. 

We are in the process of opening our Chapter in Texas and are super excited about that.  We’ll have a Chapter in Texas y’all!  How freaking awesome is that?  Before long there will be a Chapter in every state.  We will change the face of CDH as we know it today.  We are making great efforts and strides to fund research, advocate awareness and support families affected by CDH. 

I am proud of what we’ve accomplished thus far and I know that with time our foundation will be even greater than it is today.  There are days when I question if I can do this or if I have the energy to do this and then I’ll get an email from a family and it confirms that I’m doing the right thing.  

We have some other really awesome things up our sleeves and I cannot wait to share those with y’all as they develop.  We are going to have a huge open house/anniversary party for Parker’s House next year so y’all start making plans to be there!! 


October 6, 2008, 3:15 pm
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There are several things I want to mention so here goes:

  • John Michael Larson was born on 10-4-08 in Denver, CO.  He is a CDH baby.
  • Kellie will be induced tonight at 8 pm with Baby Carter.  I’ll update when I know more.
  • Pictures of Dedication (the few I took) are on the foundation  blog.
  • Round for Hope ™ is October 24 ,2008 in San Antonio, Texas. 
  • PRF Launch Party is December 6, 2008.
  • Heels of Hope™ starts February 27, 2009 lasting thru March 28, 2009 for Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia Awareness.  More to come later. 
  • There are only 80 more days until Christmas!  Eek!

Okay, things have been extremely busy the last week.  I thought it would slow down but I was so wrong.  I will udpate more later as I know this post is so blah.