Simply A Farmer’s Wife

May 1, 2008, 8:39 am
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We are 7 days away from Parker’s birthday.  I am already getting anxious.  I’m trying to figure out how I will manage to make it through the next week.  

Please just say some prayers for us.  There are so many families who are going through what we are and we all need prayers. 

Her birthday is a happy day for us.  It’s the day she was born.  The day we finally saw our beautiful little girl.  The happiest day of our lives.  The day our family became complete.  Parker is so many things to us.  I wish that each of you had had the opportunity to meet her.  What a an astounding person she was.   I learned my courage and strength from her.  I learned how to love in a way I never knew possible from her.  I learned to forgive from her.  I learned to laugh from my gut from her.  I learned to smile without caring who was watching me.  I learned that it’s okay to cry in public.  I’ve learned so much from her. 

I hope that in those 20 hours I taught her something too. 

The days leading to her birthday are hard.  I miss her so much.  Damn you CDH.  Damn you for hurting so many families including my own. 

It Still Stings Two Years Later.

Today 2 years ago we were diagnosed with a rare birth defect known as Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia.  For those of you who know our story you know the impact this day had and continues to have on our lives. 

I remember sitting in the waiting room with Ashley.  My legs shaking badly because I knew something was wrong with our little girl.  It was a gut feeling.  We made our way into the room and for almost an hour and half they took measurment after measurement of Parker.   When we were told about her CDH I felt my world changing in the matter of seconds.  I knew we would walk out of that office and our lives would never be the same.  I cried for days wondering what would happen to our little girl.  A little girl we were told we would never have.  A miracle from our Lord. 

I don’t know how to confront this day each year except to honor our little girl and those babies who have been or will be diagnosed with Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia. 

We have met many wonderful people through this journey.  Too many to mention.  We are thankful and grateful to each of them for what they have given us.  This journey would not be possible without God and our family and friends.  Thank you to each of you! 

Well, now that I cannot see through my tears I’m going to close.  Please just say a prayer for us as this day is a hard one and means that her birthday is a month away.  Wow, how time flies.